Yesterday I Felt Like I Was on Fire

On Friday morning, when I woke up. I was met by the usual Charlie Horses in my calves and feet. I waited in bed for about 10 minutes for the spasms to let go so I could get out of bed. The night before was abysmal. Maybe slept for 24 hours total. Kept waking up… Continue reading Yesterday I Felt Like I Was on Fire

Whirlwind of Doctors Once Again

Ok.  Now I have more time to write. Starting about 3 weeks ago, the proverbial shit hit the fan again with my health.  My mouth.  For fucks sake.  It won’t end.  Near the end of May, my mouth was just hurting.  The swallowing issues returned.  The burning mouth.  Everything is coming back again. Since I… Continue reading Whirlwind of Doctors Once Again

Quality of Life

Exhaustion.  Sleeplessness.  Wiped out.  Recovery from the tumor removal has really gotten hard.  Pain still comes and goes, always at the worst times.  I hate to say it, but I really wish that I had more time to recover from the surgery.  I only had 2 real weeks of recovery.  I feel extremely rushed to… Continue reading Quality of Life

ENT follow up #2

Ugh. I don’t even know how to describe how utterly terrible my week has been. Probably the worst week I’ve experienced in a long time.   For the past week, week & a half I have been experiencing sharp stabbing pains where Fred called home. It literally feels like someone is stabbing me repeatedly with… Continue reading ENT follow up #2

First Post Op ENT Visit | Operative Report

As each day passes, things seem to feel somewhat better. This morning the pain is still coming and going, but the Vicodin seems to be keeping it in check. I am still not sleeping very well, and there is still some residual swelling on the left side of my face, so I am continuing to… Continue reading First Post Op ENT Visit | Operative Report

The Day After

The morning after.  I don’t know where to begin to be honest.  Last night I broke down…  I had to.  The culmination of the past 2 years in conjunction with the procedure, the extreme amount of pain, and just “the walls caving in”.  It’s done.  I made it.  My wife has been the most supportive… Continue reading The Day After

Awaken

This song sums up the literal war I have been fighting for the past 2 years to survive through several rounds of sepsis, hospitalizations, crippling pain, and pushing hard for the answers I needed. I’ve come to realize that it’s now become my time to Awaken and push hard to the finish.  Funny, comes from… Continue reading Awaken