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People joke about it all the time. Eating food from this restaurant gave me PTSD. ETC ETC. For me I was also the same. Making jokes about it. I had a rude awakening yesterday. I’ll be honest. I’ve had countless surgeries since I paid that fucking idiot $20k. Every surgery marked me. Fear. Anxiety. I… Continue reading PTSD

Yep. More staph. When my email notification went off, I saw it was Labcore. Frantically logging in I was hoping for something. The past 2 cultures grew nothing. Sure enough. More coagulate negative staph. As I started to read the list of antibiotics that worked, there were quite a few that were resistant. Of course… Continue reading Another culture

If 1 word would describe how I’m feeling about things. It’s apathy. I’ve seriously stopped fucking caring. No matter what I do, or say doesn’t matter. Nobody is listening anymore. How do I feel?  Sad. I’ve felt like this for awhile now. I’m also angry. Why?  The pain won’t stop. My mouth hurts 24/7. At least the… Continue reading Apathy

The past few weeks has tested every ounce of me. Between work, health and home. When does it all end?  Seriously?  I would love some sort of reprieve or break or honestly a fucking end to all this. Ever since the implants were placed I’ve been in a downward spiral. Last Friday I was called by my… Continue reading No Escape

Well. After a shitty weekend, my face started to just hurt as I drove home Saturday. By the time I got home I needed a sinus rinse. Fast. Something didn’t feel right. The strange smell has come back. The rotting one. Yay.  The rinse calmed down the fire, but my jaw has continuously hurt more… Continue reading Familiar Territory

 As of late. This is what my life has been. Finding time to grab onto the calm with chaos all around. I’ll be honest. The past 6 weeks have been … hell. After seeing the ENT, I was probably in the ER by day 3. My face has just contributed to hurt. Gave me antibiotics,… Continue reading Calm Within the Chaos

I saw Hepworth. Anxiety leading up to the appointment was crazy. I really didn’t know what he was going to say or do. He warmly greeted me with a handshake as he always does. However, he was polite and straightforward. I’ve come to respect this doctor in varying degrees. I told him about the drill… Continue reading Return

Seems like every time I post things just keep getting worse. More strange shit is showing up in my face. Last week I was in the shower just miserable. Doing my usual sinus rinse. That’s when the most disgusting thing came out. Immediately had the wife grab my culture sticks. Actinobacter baumannii. Never heard of… Continue reading Disappointing Progression

You would think by now that the surgeries would be over. That this would be all behind me. Of course it’s not. Last Thursday was anxiety inducing. Jaw surgery is not something to take lightly. It’s not as simple as pulling a tooth. The amount of trauma my mouth has had in the past 2… Continue reading Jaws

That’s strange feel in I have had in my sinuses for the past two years is continuing to haunt me. This weekend we got away to Ouray. Holy shit it’s the farthest I’ve gone. Middle of nowhere.  The night before we got there we left early.  Around 4pm Friday I started to feel like shit. It’s… Continue reading Anomalies