Familiar Territory

Well. After a shitty weekend, my face started to just hurt as I drove home Saturday. By the time I got home I needed a sinus rinse. Fast. Something didn’t feel right. The strange smell has come back. The rotting one. Yay. 

The rinse calmed down the fire, but my jaw has continuously hurt more and more. Since I had luck with the injectable steroids, fuck it. Let’s get oral started. A day later the pressure and pain went down in my jaw, but where my tumor was I kept feeling something strange. 

Monday was outright fucking miserable. Blowing my nose the reddish chunks were coming out. I had no energy. Sweating like crazy. I felt ill. Went to work anyway. As sat there it felt like someone was digging into my skull w/ a screwdriver. I couldn’t take it. I left work, took some morphine, got home and blacked out (yeah I probably took more than you should). Next morning it was 10x worse. I got into the shower and did my sinus rinse. I did my usual gagging. But when I went in the left side I felt something move up there. I plugged the right side and just blew as hard as I could and splat. Out came a bloody clump of pus. The scary part was I was full on bleeding for about 10 minutes in the shower. Thankfully it stopped. It was a considerable amount. 

Holy fuck did I feel better after that. But this tells me all this isn’t over. Whatever is in my nose, cheeks and face is all connected. The swelling on my face and the overall lumpiness has gone down, however the lumps in my mouth. Specifically on the inner lip. There’s 2 clusters of lumps that hurt like mad. 

Tonight my whole face was burning. Maybe it’s because I was talking to much today. Or I got aggravated. All I know is this sucks. It’s getting hard to focus on things. I feel delayed most of the time now. 

The next few days have been the same thing. Lumps in my mouth burn, hurt, I bit them it gets worse. I’d really love to know wtf this is. But the shit my my jaw isn’t getting any better either. So fuck it. I called Rollert. I need to get this shit done so I can check the bx that this was done. I called this morning thinking it’s gonna br 2 weeks. Lol. Can you come in tomorrow?  Lol. That’s gotta be a first. So that happened. I’m scheduled for surgery tomorrow. Yeah it’s not gonna be any fun, but hopefully this stops the jaw pain. The burning. The lumps. Fuck I am just over it.