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Friday came, and went. I couldn’t sleep… at all.. Between my nerves just being from another planet, and the sheer amount of pain I was feeling in my face it’s over. The 2 year long fight. Jesus. The anxiety the night before. I was having a panic attack. Pretty bad. So I had a few… Continue reading It’s Over

Yup. It’s started. The sheer amount of pain and stress has met my tipping point today. I can honestly say that I am scared shitless. Beyond anything that I’ve ever had to wait for. Friday is less than 48 hours away. I have no idea outside of the “informed consent” I signed for. Mastoidectomy. Sounds… Continue reading Panic

I don’t know how, or where I have gotten this amount of patience. However, as of last week, its gone. Of course Hepworth’s office called, “I’ve got some bad news”. I fucking knew it that something wasn’t going to go right. The best part is that I vented my frustration, and that was met with… Continue reading Losing Patience

Fuck man. The past 3 weeks. Whatthefucksville. 2 weekends ago I started to just not feel right. My back was starting to hurt. Of course I have way too much going on and I can’t keep track of everything. The kidney stone they saw when I was hospitalized. Yep. Forgot about it. I’m an idiot.… Continue reading LOL At This Point

As each day passes my face hurts more and more. I complained to Sarid last week before my kidney stone hit. He actually agreed to give me rocephin. But as per usual, the infusion center didn’t call. So I started calling them this week. Left several messages. Finally got whoever does scheduling now and just… Continue reading Surviving the Next 2 Weeks

Would be a neat title for a horror story. Could explain the torture I go through daily. I’m literally counting down the days. I’ll be honest. My face fucking hurts. There is something in there. The sores on my neck alone should be a telltale sign that this is infection. I would just love to… Continue reading 3 Weeks

Jesus Christ. I’m so fucking annoyed at this point. Fuck all doctors. They are all useless. None of them listen. I’m sitting here in the waiting room waiting to be seen for the 100th fucking time. My mouth at this Point is fucking murder. I saw Hepworth 2 weeks ago. I have a serious infection… Continue reading Annoyed

You’d think by now that all this shit that I’ve been dealing with is fixed. Or healed. In some way shape or form. It’s not. It’s getting worse. I saw Hepworth 4 weeks ago. A week prior to that I had an MRI. Hepworth found several things on the mri that the radiologist missed. Not… Continue reading Really Over This

I might as well write this before I can’t. This week has been… stressful to say the least. Over the past 3 weeks my body and soul has been under attack. I’m really glad I went back to the dermatologist to figure out these sores. Herpes ain’t no fucking joke. I don’t ever remember it… Continue reading Breaking Point

For as long as I can remember back my face has felt weird. As 2009 came, the acne came back. Hard. In a pretty severe way too. For years I went to the dermatologist to try removing the cysts. Pop them. Drain them. Fuck I even did a sting of Accutane which did nothing. This… Continue reading Chronic Mucocutaneous Candidiasis