Losing Patience

I don’t know how, or where I have gotten this amount of patience. However, as of last week, its gone. Of course Hepworth’s office called, “I’ve got some bad news”. I fucking knew it that something wasn’t going to go right. The best part is that I vented my frustration, and that was met with “I’m being disrespectful”. Respectfully, kiss my fucking ass. Why can’t they do it? The answer was amazing, we weren’t able to get the scope to perform the procedure. So you mean to tell me, that you scheduled surgery without having all the necessary things to do it?

You do realize I know that you did submit any surgical stuff for a few weeks, not only delaying Dr. Lupo, but ultimately my treatment. This surgery didn’t have to happen at the same time. There was really no reason for it. As this fucking retard was upset I was asking really hard questions, it dawned on me that perhaps Hepworth has just been wasting my time. And he has been. As his dipshit scheduler tried to make this all seem like its no big deal, she had the fucking balls to ask me to delay the Lupo side of the surgery. When I told her that nothing will be delaying that surgery, she just showed more attitude by saying stupid shit like “Oh I heard Dr Hepworth say this”. Or that. I think she was just trying to intentionally aggravate me. It worked, but I didn’t respond her second call. At this point, I don’t think they will even schedule it.

I’ve been dealing with the salivary shit since the implants went in. I’m pretty sure fuckhead caused this. That’s how long this has been going on. The shit in my face, mouth, and on my neck. So I ended up hitting up the other ENT that’s always helped me @ UC Health. She referred me to the surgeon that does the scope stuff for them, and I have an appointment on the 18th. I just hope she doesn’t do the same shit that infectious disease did, or immunology, or every other fucking doctor at that shit show.

I’m sorry but this shit hurts. There is and has been an infection there for quite some time, I am just done dealing with it. I have 0 patience for anything or anyone at this point anymore. It’s been me who has been suffering through all this. The insurmountable amount of neglect is appalling. But this is how it is, and I get to see it all.

As next Friday approaches I am hoping that this stops the infection, although I know it wont. The stuff under my tongue is not going to go away without intervention. I just find it fucking hilarious that Hepworth thinks he’s the only one that can do this. I’m glad that I called around to talk to that other office. It’s quite clear to me that Hepworths office royally fucked this up. But probably had 0 intention of doing the surgery anyway. Why even waste peoples time like that? They must think that that’s what I am doing to them.