Surviving the Next 2 Weeks

As each day passes my face hurts more and more. I complained to Sarid last week before my kidney stone hit. He actually agreed to give me rocephin. But as per usual, the infusion center didn’t call. So I started calling them this week. Left several messages. Finally got whoever does scheduling now and just heard excuses.

Why do people not want to do their job or even try anymore?

It’s taking all of my patience with the facial pain. The shit I feel in my jaw, in my mouth. Even the neck lumps are starting to burn and hurt. At this point I am convinced this is actinomyces. Pus comes out of my face. My skin feels like shit on my face. The swelling just ebbs and flows. It gets worse, then calms down. Then Just repeats.

I hope that Hepworth gets out whatever is under my tongue. I want relief. I need a break from whatever the fuck this is. Permanently.

I just have a feeling the culture will come back with it, then I get referred to one of the ID doctors. I won’t be nice. Why? Because all I’ve done is fucking tell these people what it is for 2 fucking years and all I get is dumb looks, you’re crazy, it’s all in your head. No shit assholes, I have scans to prove it’s in my head.

I feel l Ike the past 2 years have been a gigantic waste.


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