Author: john

I’d really like to know what happened.  Like.  Honestly.  It seems like since 2012, my life has been slowly deteriorating.  The loss of my mother kickstarted something.  Not really sure where, why or how, but things seem to be originating from that.  They say that death is not an easy thing to deal with.  It wasn’t.  When my mom died, I didn’t mourn.  The… Continue reading What Happened?

Just seems like I get ahead, then just get punted back down the stairs again. And again. And again.  Ended up having to dump the Apple Watch because of the metal. Luckily I found a ceramic one (previously had the series 2 Ceramic) online. I guess that’s maybe a little  happiness.  Honesty should have just gotten this… Continue reading Can’t Win

As the weeks have gone by, things have become more and more clear. The acrylic sample obtained from the lab was negative, as well as a zirconia sample. The titanium was irritating to have on my back. But hopefully that’s it.  I returned back to the guy that put my implants in. This time, I… Continue reading Further data

Well. It’s been an interesting past couple of weeks. To start off I’m still miserable. My mouth just will not stop hurting. I find it unacceptable that the guy who placed my implants has run and hidden himself. I mean you are a doctor for fucks sake. Help me.  Instead, my oral surgeon is being… Continue reading Allergic to Everything

I’ll be honest. The past 3 years has seriously taken its toll on me. I’ve always tried to help. Whatever I can do to help take the burden of whatever off someone else. Helping friends move. Borrowing money. Buying dinner. I’ve always had a positive attitude no matter what I’ve had to deal with. But… Continue reading Meh

Today. This week. Has not been good. I’ll come right out and say it. Fuck 2020. From every angle, aspect, perspective. I am coming to my end of being able to handle this. Between my health, great friends losing their mother, and you guessed it. The lovely medical community I’m surrounded by.  Today was the… Continue reading Disgustingly Disappointed

As a joke, this is what I’ve felt like lately. I’ve lost count. I’ve probably passed at least 7 stones so far. I’m just sick of the pain. I don’t see how, or why all this is happening. I never had one up until now.  It’s just a non stop barrage of of them at this… Continue reading Pellet Gun

This is a post that has been forthcoming. I am sorry if I offend anyone, but I feel it’s time to vent. That’s the whole reason I pay for this.  First things first. Chronic illness. I don’t know where to begin. It’s been 3 years. Fuck. Maybe longer if I really want to nitpick. But… Continue reading Positively Frustrated

I don’t even know where to start this post. It almost seems that I am not meant to get better.  Every time I turn around an make a little positive forward progress, I get knocked back a mile. After working with my ENT to get the Linezolid prescription, things started to get better. 3 weeks into… Continue reading Unrelenting Illness

I don’t know where I get my resiliency from. Seems like 3 years ago my life took a turn for the absolute worst. I have been having almost weekly follow ups with my ENT. About a week ago, the cat pee smell and throat issues returned. Looking at my throat I could see nothing, however… Continue reading The never-ending battle