Author: john

Talked to the lawyer today. Was kind of irritated that it’s taken them 6 months to get something going. He promised me that the demand would be finished by the end of the week.  I also had to change the blog to invite only. Not like I care, but I need to be careful.  I… Continue reading Legal beginnings

Starting this entry has already taken me back to 2011. Having lunch with mom. (We did do this quite often). I think back when simple things like this would just make her smile. Come out of her shell. Laugh. And smile. It was always something to see. Gap or not, I loved to see my… Continue reading Giving up

As I sit here in the waiting room, there is someone who is about 22-23. With his mother. Sitting with the registration tablet “here you do it”. Mom just reluctantly takes it. Starts asking him all the questions. I’m sorry. But if you are the patient, you should be the one doing all that. Computer… Continue reading Observation

Guess I can say I’m still trying. Jesus this sucks. The move just was unexpected. Asshole neighbors. Playing music all hours, just disrespectful. The same guy I tried to help. Sorry your wife left you and your son doesn’t want anything to do with you. No wonder they ran away. Dude is an idiot.  With… Continue reading Trying

Well. ENT visit was productive. I’m fucking tired. My face hurts. Nothing new. As I sat with the ENT’s PA, we picked up where we left off. Talked about the drill bit. Wound up getting more salivary meds and labs. I did get a different kind of prescription. Xhance. Nasal steroid. Reason being when she… Continue reading Immunity

Man. You rewind back 10 years ago, none of what’s happening now, was happening back then. Going out. Partying like no tomorrow. Spending time with friends. Really starting to focus on my career. Nothing equips anyone for what I’ve had to endure the past 2 years. It’s been non stop. Ride from hell.  When I… Continue reading Change

The past few days have been .. miserable. The facial pain and jaw pain has been rising. Since the kidney issues, I feel like I am spiraling out of control.  As I was collecting things for my attorney, I was just looking over correspondence from UC Health.  As I read moreover, it was just disappointing to re-read… Continue reading Thin

Today was a really bad day. I’ll forgo the usual crap I talk about and just talk about what felt like a out of body experience today.  As the afternoon rolled in, so did a storm. Holy fuck I was crippled. I am really not sure how to describe what I felt but there was… Continue reading Diagnostic

I don’t know what’s going on anymore. The toxicity of the metal in my mouth has taken its toll. I am not certain, but it seems like more damage was done. The human immune system is fascinating with the fact that it will defend itself like nothing else. From my previous post, the kidney stones… Continue reading Shutdown

It’s been a tough beginning of the year. Things just not feeling right. Since Mayo, my face was “ok” but Jesus did it burn. Sting. And just throbbed.  It was inexcapable. After the drill bit  was removed things got worse. The sense of smell or taste. Often times it would evolve into a rotten smell. It would… Continue reading Kidneyyyyyyyyys