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Two weeks ago, I think the rollercoaster has once again reached its maximum kinetic energy.  You know exactly what I’m talking about. Once you are strapped in, they don’t come off till the ride is over. The minute it leaves the loading station, your stomach just tries to hide.  All your back muscles tense up, maybe goosebumps… Continue reading Challenges

I wish I had something positive to talk about. I really do. I’ve lost my patience with doctors. This morning I went to see yet another oral surgeon. Just a waste of time at this point. As I sat there catching him up, he decided to start saying that I need to find another doctor… Continue reading Sick of being sick

Infection is back. Don’t think it’s left. It’s just there. More pus started coming out of my face and ears last week. I’m also getting what I can only explain as sores on the top of my scalp. I returned to my dermatologist for more injections. The last injections I got seriously pissed something off.… Continue reading Awesome

Talked to the lawyer today. Was kind of irritated that it’s taken them 6 months to get something going. He promised me that the demand would be finished by the end of the week.  I also had to change the blog to invite only. Not like I care, but I need to be careful.  I… Continue reading Legal beginnings

Starting this entry has already taken me back to 2011. Having lunch with mom. (We did do this quite often). I think back when simple things like this would just make her smile. Come out of her shell. Laugh. And smile. It was always something to see. Gap or not, I loved to see my… Continue reading Giving up

As I sit here in the waiting room, there is someone who is about 22-23. With his mother. Sitting with the registration tablet “here you do it”. Mom just reluctantly takes it. Starts asking him all the questions. I’m sorry. But if you are the patient, you should be the one doing all that. Computer… Continue reading Observation

Guess I can say I’m still trying. Jesus this sucks. The move just was unexpected. Asshole neighbors. Playing music all hours, just disrespectful. The same guy I tried to help. Sorry your wife left you and your son doesn’t want anything to do with you. No wonder they ran away. Dude is an idiot.  With… Continue reading Trying

Well. ENT visit was productive. I’m fucking tired. My face hurts. Nothing new. As I sat with the ENT’s PA, we picked up where we left off. Talked about the drill bit. Wound up getting more salivary meds and labs. I did get a different kind of prescription. Xhance. Nasal steroid. Reason being when she… Continue reading Immunity

Man. You rewind back 10 years ago, none of what’s happening now, was happening back then. Going out. Partying like no tomorrow. Spending time with friends. Really starting to focus on my career. Nothing equips anyone for what I’ve had to endure the past 2 years. It’s been non stop. Ride from hell.  When I… Continue reading Change

The past few days have been .. miserable. The facial pain and jaw pain has been rising. Since the kidney issues, I feel like I am spiraling out of control.  As I was collecting things for my attorney, I was just looking over correspondence from UC Health.  As I read moreover, it was just disappointing to re-read… Continue reading Thin