Author: john

I have been reflecting over the past 10+ years over myself and how the downward spiral began. Prior to 2008, I don’t think I had many issues outside of a few cavities and just getting bronchitis / pneumonia constantly. My face was fine. Outside of my ears getting infections because I had to keep taking… Continue reading Chronic

DATE OF OPERATION:08/19/2022 PREOPERATIVE DIAGNOSIS:Diffuse sialadenitis involving submandibular and parotid glands with disseminated actinomycosis. POSTOPERATIVE DIAGNOSIS:Diffuse sialadenitis involving submandibular and parotid glands with disseminated actinomycosis. PROCEDURES:Four-gland sialendoscopy and sialodochoendoscopy with ductal irrigation and drainage.Sialodochoplasty x4. SURGEON:Edward J. Hepworth, MD ANESTHESIA:General endotracheal. FLUIDS: 1000 mL crystalloid. ESTIMATED BLOOD LOSS:None. FINDINGS:Obstruction of 4 glands, bilateral Stensen’s and… Continue reading Sialendoscopy #1

I’ve had nightmares the past few nights. Tonight I think I relived something from the deep dark past. It was about mom, and my abusive father. I don’t think it’s the Ambien doing it. I saw her face once again. It was not what you would imagine. Felt like I went full on rewind 35… Continue reading Can’t Sleep

Appointment with Dr. Lupo happened today. He removed the steristrips and says it’s healing nicely. There is however a lot of fluid still trapped in my mastoid where he worked, and that will take about 7-8 weeks to dissipate. He told me that the surgery was absolutely necessary. When he accessed the mastoid, he immediately… Continue reading Mastoidectomy Post Op

Friday came, and went. I couldn’t sleep… at all.. Between my nerves just being from another planet, and the sheer amount of pain I was feeling in my face it’s over. The 2 year long fight. Jesus. The anxiety the night before. I was having a panic attack. Pretty bad. So I had a few… Continue reading It’s Over

Yup. It’s started. The sheer amount of pain and stress has met my tipping point today. I can honestly say that I am scared shitless. Beyond anything that I’ve ever had to wait for. Friday is less than 48 hours away. I have no idea outside of the “informed consent” I signed for. Mastoidectomy. Sounds… Continue reading Panic

I don’t know how, or where I have gotten this amount of patience. However, as of last week, its gone. Of course Hepworth’s office called, “I’ve got some bad news”. I fucking knew it that something wasn’t going to go right. The best part is that I vented my frustration, and that was met with… Continue reading Losing Patience

Fuck man. The past 3 weeks. Whatthefucksville. 2 weekends ago I started to just not feel right. My back was starting to hurt. Of course I have way too much going on and I can’t keep track of everything. The kidney stone they saw when I was hospitalized. Yep. Forgot about it. I’m an idiot.… Continue reading LOL At This Point

As each day passes my face hurts more and more. I complained to Sarid last week before my kidney stone hit. He actually agreed to give me rocephin. But as per usual, the infusion center didn’t call. So I started calling them this week. Left several messages. Finally got whoever does scheduling now and just… Continue reading Surviving the Next 2 Weeks

Would be a neat title for a horror story. Could explain the torture I go through daily. I’m literally counting down the days. I’ll be honest. My face fucking hurts. There is something in there. The sores on my neck alone should be a telltale sign that this is infection. I would just love to… Continue reading 3 Weeks