Too Long

I have to start this off with saying that it has absolutely taken way too long to get help.

To be honest 2018 was when this started to take from me. Slowly every day I felt this dark grip slowly dragging me under. I shrugged it off as being overworked (which I was). UC Health did an amazing job derailing everything I was going through. Biggest waste of time. But as every day passed, things were getting worse.

Between the rashes, heart palpitations, sepsis, Lyme was hidden underneath all of this. Getting the implants provoked the beast. That almost seemed to accelerate what was going on. It didn’t help that they were done 100% incorrectly. That only pushed the infection deeper. I still remember asking Dr Dipshit @ UC Health about the mastoid issue. It was just shrugged off.

Even the shit on my neck, ignored.

This only gave all the time Lyme needed to dig deep into me. When Emily was diagnosed, I ignored my own symptoms. Again, life getting in the way. Plus I was just ignoring everything.

By 2021, things worstened. Perhaps everything caving in didn’t help. Kidney stones. The clots. But only after the 2nd round of antibiotics. I started to feel better, but I went off a cliff afterwards. Probably the 2nd sinus surgery was what did it.

Between the 4 kidney stones, and the weird breathing issues. Everything felt like it was going to end with the clots. Then the implants being removed. Then the drill bit… and then and then and then.

It’s angering to think that all of this had to happen to get me here today.

The one thing that’s never gone away is the pain in my face. It’s only gotten worse. Along my jaw. Under my tongue. Down my neck.