Author: john

Well. It’s been an interesting past couple of weeks. To start off I’m still miserable. My mouth just will not stop hurting. I find it unacceptable that the guy who placed my implants has run and hidden himself. I mean you are a doctor for fucks sake. Help me.  Instead, my oral surgeon is being… Continue reading Allergic to Everything

I’ll be honest. The past 3 years has seriously taken its toll on me. I’ve always tried to help. Whatever I can do to help take the burden of whatever off someone else. Helping friends move. Borrowing money. Buying dinner. I’ve always had a positive attitude no matter what I’ve had to deal with. But… Continue reading Meh

Today. This week. Has not been good. I’ll come right out and say it. Fuck 2020. From every angle, aspect, perspective. I am coming to my end of being able to handle this. Between my health, great friends losing their mother, and you guessed it. The lovely medical community I’m surrounded by.  Today was the… Continue reading Disgustingly Disappointed

As a joke, this is what I’ve felt like lately. I’ve lost count. I’ve probably passed at least 7 stones so far. I’m just sick of the pain. I don’t see how, or why all this is happening. I never had one up until now.  It’s just a non stop barrage of of them at this… Continue reading Pellet Gun

This is a post that has been forthcoming. I am sorry if I offend anyone, but I feel it’s time to vent. That’s the whole reason I pay for this.  First things first. Chronic illness. I don’t know where to begin. It’s been 3 years. Fuck. Maybe longer if I really want to nitpick. But… Continue reading Positively Frustrated

I don’t even know where to start this post. It almost seems that I am not meant to get better.  Every time I turn around an make a little positive forward progress, I get knocked back a mile. After working with my ENT to get the Linezolid prescription, things started to get better. 3 weeks into… Continue reading Unrelenting Illness

I don’t know where I get my resiliency from. Seems like 3 years ago my life took a turn for the absolute worst. I have been having almost weekly follow ups with my ENT. About a week ago, the cat pee smell and throat issues returned. Looking at my throat I could see nothing, however… Continue reading The never-ending battle

Don’t even know how to describe what its like to have a kidney stone, but also I have no idea how to explain the pain that comes after surgery.  Having a laser and camera jammed up your peehole is not a pleasant experience to say the least. I got to the urology center here in… Continue reading Recovering from a Kidney Stone and Immunotherapy Changes

It’s 3am. I haven’t been sleeping well the past few months. I wake up to a dull pain in my lower back, and I thought to myself “that doesn’t feel right”. I sat up and was instantly met with the most painful thing I’ve ever felt. I immediately rolled out of bed and onto the… Continue reading 3am Wake Up Call

Since the surgery on 5/22, shit has just been upside down. For starters I’m in a severely shitty mood to start. It’s just the culmination of frustration with “the system”. It’s truly tiring to deal with our medical system. I feel like I am a product of its failure or success depending on which angle… Continue reading More “fun” facts