Author: john

So. We went grocery shopping last week. I got all the ingredients for spaghetti and meatballs. But I was able to will up the strength to do it. I was going to try yesterday after ketamine, but quickly determined that the two shots I got weren’t gonna let me use my arms for the rest… Continue reading Major Milestone

So earlier this week I pulled the 5 alarm fire with my ENT who performed the Mastoidectomies the past 2 years. I had an appointment scheduled for late next week, but this couldn’t wait. Pus is still coming out of the incision area and from behind my ear. It stings, it really hurts, and it’s… Continue reading Follow-up with ENT / Ear Doctor & More

Just wanted to quickly share that I paid off a hospital bill with some of the proceeds from the GoFundMe. The rest will eliminate one of the credit cards I have been using to pay for medical expenses. Thank you to everyone who has helped me chase down this nightmare of medical bills.

Yesterday was Ketamine infusion #3. 120mg. I was sort of expecting to go through it and at the end have the #tooktoomuch reaction. I didn’t. It was perfect. I woke up this morning at 5am to absolutely no pain whatsoever. I often wonder how much longer I have to wait to get here, where I… Continue reading Serenity

This morning was pretty rough getting out of bed. 6am came quick. The sleeplessness has started to creep back. I woke up a few times. Yes. The pain is starting to come back. I can feel the swelling in my face near my jaw start to flare. At 3am, I got up to take my… Continue reading Rough Morning All Around & Reflection

A few people at work decided to put together a GoFundMe page to help lighten the burden of all the medical bills that are starting to pile up. I’m really grateful for everyone in my life. If you feel like helping donate, or just sharing to social media to get the word out I would… Continue reading GoFundMe

Not by any means my fault. We got to the infusion center 10 minutes before they opened. Once they opened the doors, it was a ghost town here. Literally 2 people plus hepworth. Nobody in infusion. We hung out till 8:15, then headed up to ENT. Around 8:30, we got called back. But sat forever… Continue reading Late Start

Last Saturday was my 2nd induction treatment of ketamine. This time, the provider pumped me up to 90mg, I could tell a difference from last time. The whole pain free feeling it’s just unexplainable. Seeing how I’ve been in writhing agony since the implant fuck up. I’ve experienced pain before, who hasn’t. But this shit… Continue reading Some Sort of Progress

After yesterday’s revelation of the Rifampin bullshit, I slept almost 8 hours. I woke up at around 2am. Popped a dilaudid and transferred this husk into the bedroom. I’m tired. Just pain pain pain everywhere I turn. Chronic pain is a fucking curse. I wouldn’t wish this upon anyone. It would be so much easier… Continue reading Something I’ve Missed

Welp. A small Google search yielded some eye opening shit. Rifampin reduces the serum levels of dilaudid and Ambien. That’s why I never pee hot at pain management. And also why I can’t fucking sleep. I’m stopping it immediately.