Kidneyyyyyyyyys

It’s been a tough beginning of the year. Things just not feeling right. Since Mayo, my face was “ok” but Jesus did it burn. Sting. And just throbbed.  It was inexcapable. After the drill bit  was removed things got worse. The sense of smell or taste. Often times it would evolve into a rotten smell. It would come and go, but then it kept coming, but never leaving. It was pretty disgusting. It would start off as just a gentle lack of smell, to burned cat, or cat piss. Sinus rinses did absolutely nothing. 

This has come and gone since the implants were put in. Metal toxicity. Highly probable.  Nothing like having something that’s not supposed to be there for that long. 

I really believe that’s what started the oral infection. The burning, the constant pus coming out of my chin, cheeks nose. You name it. Everywhere. But as time went on apart from dealing with pain, I e probably done a horseshit job of taking care of myself. It’s not easy. Ive been feeling pretty defeated as of late. I’m just tired. Exhausted. I barely make a full day without requiring  a nap, wether it’s a quick 10 minute one.   This whole ordeal has just been … life stealing stuff this point. 

I woke up this morning inking that maybe. Just maybe I’m starting to feel better, u til I looked in the mirror. I look like someone threw acid at my face. Redness. Everywhere. Incredibly dry. I’ve never seen my face like that. I’ve been literally been dumping it all on to reapply it again in an hour. 

As for progress with clinda?  Too early to tell. I can say that the facial swelling has come down significantly, but there’s still more. The last spots that still need time is my cheeks jawline, and under my tongue. Yeah my face has been concstantly hurting, but it’s going down. Small pockets of pus are starting to push out of my face. Now who knows if this is actually getting pushed out, or it’s spreading. 

As for this week I have a pre-op appointment at TUCC to get everything done before on the 13th of next week. I’m just hoping that I do t get a stent. Or that excruciating agony I was in for 2 days spewing razor blades and napalm. The usual EKG / Bloodwork / liquid diet will have to happen first. Then the day before it’s void my body of everything. ESWL is what I’m having done. Yeah they do put you out for it, hopefully they give me a prophylactic dose of vancomycin (one could only hope). Surgery will be next week Thursday, that way I have a long weekend to recover. 

More later