Clean Living

It’s almost been 2 months since we evacuated a life threatening place. Parc created a very unhealthy, unsafe, and simply put, a dangerous life-threatening situation that if we didn’t act, it would’ve most likely taken my life. The symptoms we all experienced while living in that hazard were worsening every day we occupied it. From my perspective, it’s like being slowly suffocated.

I’m so happy that we are out of danger. The cats have been more playful, and active, Anies asthma has pretty much gone away, I’m still dealing with the fallout, but can say from a general perspective, my body doesn’t feel under constant attack. The high alert mode that became a way of life for way too long.

The new place is great. The office staff are very nice. The maintenance people are great to work with. The unit itself is spacious, and open. The flooring is nice. The whole place as a whole is actually what Parc said they were, affordable luxury living.

Ketamine happened today. The experience was the usual. Felt good. Pain free during the journey. The only thing that can make it bad, is well, you think bad thoughts. One of the things that was “on the list” to analyze was the actions of Parc. My life prior to when we moved in. Let’s be real, things were getting better. New job. New state. New opportunities. To now, I struggle to walk, I have no appetite, I can’t eat the things I want even I wanted to. Due to having no teeth for starters, and post-heart attack. All because someone didn’t want to do the right thing.

My session ended with an emotional breakdown with Hannah and the MA. I started off by how could someone do this to someone else? The only answer I could come up with is greed as we walked down the hallway. Hiring incompetent people. People who are dishonest. People who CHOOSE to not to their job. Go that extra mile. Yes. This did ruin the “fun” part of ketamine, but at the same reaffirmed that the evidence I have against Parc is substantial.

I want people to do good, do the right thing. Because good things will happen because of it. I’m the product and/or result of corporate greed. I blame Parc for taking away the life I once had. The time I’ve lost, the +$50,000 in debt I have now as a direct result.

I’ve also had to walk away from several people, who are exactly are against what I said above. Friendships of over 10 years, my father, my sister. I cannot be around people who consciously choose to do the opposite. Giving someone just pain over some false short term gain. I’ll never understand that perspective, nor do I want to spend the time and effort to. It’s a literal waste of time. I’d rather just shut the door and walk away.

I am so grateful for those people who go out of their way to make sure I’m doing ok, or if I need help. I sure do need a lot of it now. I would do the same for them if the roles were reversed. Being selfless is much harder than the other path. I told you I like challenges right?