Day of Frustration and Ignorance

Today started off ok. Anies was home before her trip. So we planned to tag team infectious disease today. But that was short lived.

Around 10, I got a call saying that the Dr had a “family emergency” and that I needed to reschedule for tomorrow. Not thinking straight I just said ok.

That’s when it dawned on me that tomorrow is ketamine. I’m absolutely NOT missing it. So I called them back and explained what’s going on. They said they would need to call me back. I knew where this was gonna go.

When they called back they said oh we can have you see her PA at 2:30. Again. I know how this is gonna go.

When we got to the appointment, the fun started. Of course my blood pressure is through the roof. The MA started to panic. 175/110. Yep. That’s what it looks like when my body is fighting something. The MA then asked me why I was there. I ran her through everything. But I know I’ll just be repeating myself so I’ll just be brief.

Of course none of it was related to the PA so I started over. But more in depth. First things first. I didn’t get the 2nd infusion of dalbavancin. Because of ignorance. I’m tired of ignorance. I really am. The stupidity of people shines through when they are under pressure.

Yes. Let me explain what’s going on to the PA who hasn’t seen me in over a month. The one who didn’t read notes before my appointment. I spent more time explaining the past month then the right now. Seriously. Fuck you for being unprepared. It’s not my fault the doctor had a “family emergency”. You should be sort of aware of wtf is going on.

My labs continually look like shit. The CT I had 3 weeks ago still says there is shit going on. Yes. Surgery isn’t till October 25th, again, not my problem. I tried to explain to her that this was he plan. That this is what we suspect is going on. The fact I felt ok for 6 days. But no. Let’s ignore fact.

We literally sat in this fucking place for over 2 hours and NOTHING was accomplished.

Couldn’t access my port. They didn’t have a needle long enough. So no labs. Then let’s pull my PICC as it’s irritated to no fucking end. And I just want it out at this point.

Nope

The PA came back in and literally asked the same questions. I wanted to ask her, do you think I’m making this up? You just double checking tht my answers are the same as I answered before?

What a fucking joke. 2 hours of our time was wasted. The doctor wants to “review” and make a decision tomorrow.

Fuck it fine. Get me out of here. So I have to go back Friday at 9:30. Maybe I’ll get a phone call by the doctor tomorrow, but I doubt it. Probably will get the “big surprise” Friday of “yeah we are just going to stop all antibiotics”. Sure say that, this only adds to the ignorance I’ve had with this place the past 3 years.

On top of all this, Sedgwick is once again fucking around with my STD. Earlier this week my ADA was approved, which is the job protection portion, the STD portion is where I keep getting paid.

After sending all the proper paperwork in, I get a response of “Your STD is approved until 8/31”. To which I replied “so does this mean STD won’t be continued?”

Crickets

Seriously fuck you for causing all this anxiety. This is the last fucking thing I need right now. Again. Just more incompetence. I fucking hate people. I swear.

So I slammed their inbox full of labs and doctor visits over the past month. Re-iterated that I’m starting Ketamine and next week’s IVIG and surgery appointment. I fucking swear they don’t reach out. They don’t get info like they are supposed to. Worthless fucking idiots. It’s like watching Idiocracy in real life, in real time.

Lastly I just emailed HR and CC’d my boss. I’ve sent all the paperwork in. Why not give me a human response as to what’s going on with STD? No, instead let’s waste more peoples time and energy on you clearly not doing your job.

So tomorrow I’ll hear back what the fuck is going on. I absolutely cannot balance work right now. Not with what’s going on. If I get nowhere with HR/Sedgwick, looks like I have no choice but to return to work. Badge in for 4 hours, and leave. I already warned my boss about what’s going on. To which he’s totally fine with it. But Jesus Christ. When does this just get easier?

Of course Sedgwick sent me a survey at the begining of all this. I can’t wait to fill this out over all this. I’m almost to the point of just floating this till long term kicks in if they really want me to be an ass about it. STD should be this fucking hard to use.

God. Fuck everything today. I’m absolutely at my wits end with ignorant people. If you cannot think, or use your brain in a basic manner. Seriously. Shut the fuck up. Stop asking me ignorant questions. Stop asking me to Google things for you. Stop asking me to do your job for you because you are incapable.

Fuck

Ignorant

People

/rant