24 Hours Later

I woke up this morning feeling much different. My fever last night hit 101.7. Everything hurt. It’s the familiar feeling of what antibiotics (the right ones) do.

Typically within 5 seconds of waking up, the agonizing pain hits reminding me it’s still there. But what’s different about today, is it was less. Much less. Typically the first thing I do is pop a dilaudid, and wait an hour for hit to it me so I can try to do something. The second thing is between my eyes and nose. It usually just burned. Pulsed.

I feel like my sinuses have opened all the way up. Breathing feels completely different. My face isn’t on fire for once. Yes, my mouth still hurts. But not as much. My body feels …

Calmer

Periodically throughout this entire ordeal, I would get a few hours of this calm. It’s hard to explain. No heart racing, sweating, constant antagonization, brain running all the time. I feel like I can rest. It’s the true definition of calm.

It’s been almost 5 hours since I’ve woken up, but it feels like I’ve woken up to a different universe. The one where I’m not constantly being attacked. The one where I don’t have to push myself to do the simplest of things. I’m hoping this sticks around for awhile. I would love it if it did.